Sunday, October 24, 2010

If I walk away from this world...

Everythings in life is unpredictable. I, or anyone of you may leave this world at any time, if it is our fate. Maybe I have good imaginations, but I would like to say some words, if and only if it did happen. But don't worry my family and my friends, I have a high EQ as a counsellor.

Just recalled last time there was one artist who wrote something and imagine what will happen after her death. Unfortunately, she passed away in a road accident. I am thinking of doing the same thing but of course, I hope to live to hundred.

If... if I left you all, those who are dear and important to me,

Please, I beg you to live your life to the fullest. However, please remember that there was once such a person named Choo Boon Hooi has walked through your life before.

For my family, I really want to apologize that I have left you all by incidence. Definitely all those loves I gave cant compare to you all. Please support and take care of each other and live your life happily to the fullest. I shall always blessed you all my dearest people on this world and keep watching you all. I haven't left, my spirit will always be there. =) I would be glad that I am no more a burden to you all. And please, give the love you want to give me generously to my brother and sister. To my dear siblings, please always listen to what your parents said, because it is ALWAYS for your own good.

For my friends, I am really glad to have you all in my lives. My good friends, close friends and true friends, you all are like a mirror to me, color up my life. Although my body may perish, but my spirit will never. Those who known me well, please continue my ambition, spirit and obligations in life. Hey, I will be watching from heaven and smiling whenever you all achieved your dreams and ambitions in life. Maybe when I am gone, there will less one annoying person disturbing you all.

Please promise me, if can, try your best to visit me at least once in a year. Telling me your recent stories and keep updating me. Then I won't feel lonely there. ;) You are welcome to sing in front of me if you feel free. Just share with me whatever you want. Bring some good food and wine. I LOVE it. Haha!

Great. Life cycle keep going on, non-stop.

悄悄地我走了
Quietly I left
正如我悄悄地来了
Just like I come, quietly
我挥一挥衣袖
I swing my sleeves freely and easily
不带走一片云彩
without bringing away the joy, happiness and glory

*Please forgive my poor translation* ^^




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Monday, October 18, 2010

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Self-questioning

Time passes so fast. I am 19 years old today and currently taking JPA scholarship and facing AS Germans. It's also the time for me to redeem myself before stepping into the entrance of uni's life.

I am a buddhist. What have I done then?

Always respect my parents and appreciate them? Yes I managed to do it.
Always endure and having patience no matter in what situation? Yes, I managed to do it.
Always putting others in the first place compare to self? Yes, I managed to do it.
Always wearing a smile while meeting others and making others happy? Yes, I managed to do it.
Forgive everyone no matter for what they have done? Yes, I managed to do it.
Always helping others with a kind intention without requesting anything? Yes, I managed to do it.

Gladly and sincerely, I managed to carry out most of the teachings. It seems that I can walk up straightly and facing other proudly since I have done the right things.

What else I have done for myself?

Thinking about my own good at most of the time? No, I cant do it.
Make myself happy or release the anger while I am sad? No, I just endure inside and engulf it.
Spare some time for myself and listen to my own heart? It's very rare.
Quarrel and argue with others to protect my own beliefs? Sometime yes, sometime no.
Use my time wisely? No, I always procrastinate.

What? I think I cannot face myself ler. Feel so ashamed for myself. When can I, at least think for myself, and be selfish just once?

My teachers and my good friends keep reminding me, that I am too straightforward and too kind, will be cheated by others easily and be used. I get hurt more easily in the future.

Nah, I am who I am. We should carry out our beliefs and do what we think is correct. Anyone support my view please...

Hopefully, I still remain who I am after 6 years, when I back to my homeland again. =)



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